31st January. The last day of the first month of the first decade that I can remember.
I don't know if I'm in love with him. In school I feel like I don't and I should just give up. But when I talk to him I feel like a load has been lifted off my back. How is it that our feelings are so confusing. I want to love him but what's the use if he's not going to love me back? What's the use of giving flour to a flour mill?
My life has become a battle field. I'm slacking everyday on my studies. I have a Science test tomorrow and I haven't even studied for it. My life saver friend isn't online and I'm writing my blog what a freak I am.
I have nothing much to say. The days have been screaming past me. Football today was awesome. I wish everyday was like a really enjoyable football game. But it can't be can it? I wish and hope and dream for a lot. But I know they'll never happen. They say dreams come true. I doubt that will ever happen to me.
That's it I guess......
Well I'll see you then,
This is Sharinia signing out from Misery. :D
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Sharinia, don't be depressed. I know Jihad's not gonna love me back, and I can't help but only too hope if I still have feelings for him. You should still hope for him if you have a bit of feelings for him.
ReplyDeleteBut like I said, there will be someone out there, right? Who knows, he might appear out of the blue somewhere, so... :D
I'm going off-point.
It's good you had an enjoyable time in football. Hang in there. :]
It's great to have a friend like you. Who I can count on and spill out my feelings to.
ReplyDeleteI totally get your point. Thanks for the advice.
But sometimes I think of the unthinkable.
Once I thought if I should tell him that I love him. How stupid can I get.
Well your right I'll hang in.
You know that your the Life Saver ryte?
You're welcome. :D No, I sometimes think of ways to confess to him. XD It's what girls with crushes do.
ReplyDeleteWith love, we often think of the unthinkable. And sometimes, you know, it feels possible. So we shouldn't really throw away all our hopes.
No, actually, I didn't know I was the life saver. XD I thought it was Farahana.
Thank you so much! :'D
Well at least now I know that I'm not a freak ;)
ReplyDeleteNp you are totally a life saver. When I talk to you you solve most of my probs. So no.
THANK YOU!
haha, i know its a bit late to comment on this, but no one gives a crap!
ReplyDeletei'm sorry i wasnt online at that time, because the life-saver friend is me right? *grins*
dude, u've got to get over him! he's a jerk, trust me! he's with someone else now, i bet he doesnt care about any of us now *gives lufi the angry look* and dont worry, i already gave him a piece of my mind (in my dreams..)
so, u say u'r signing out from misery, yet you give out a smily face. haha, sory, i love to look at the details...
btw, u'r not a freak.
Haha, farahana, it's always the negative with you, isn't it? XD
ReplyDeletelol this is my VERY late reply soz :$
ReplyDeletelol yea signing out from misery eh?
hmm but every single time we start talking i jst feel like wow! I mean I dunno.... :S
lol Ardi I think tht's Pratiwi ur talking bout :D